Thursday, March 30, 2006
A Lost Battle
Standing here, in the cold
In the rain, what I'd give
To feel warm again..
The battle for our souls have already been won. In A.D. 33 one man came to fight the one battle that would determine the fate of our lives. It was a tough battle and at the most crucial point the source of His strength would forsake Him. Yet Love for us wretched beings and Obedience to the One Creator was what kept Him going. How many times have I heard this story? Easter's just around the corner. It will be re-enacted again. What will my response be? A gush of gratitude and awesomeness? Or a sense of guilt and remorse? Or both? "Where your heart is, there your treasure will be also". Day in day out where do my thots dwell in? What are my eyes fixed on? What is it my heart yearns for? Does tt even matter? It should not, for I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. And my heart is 'desperately wicked and deceitful'. Speak to me, Wonderful Counselor. Apart from you I am nothing and can do nothing. Help me to choose the right path to walk, and renew my heart to be more and more like You. That wherever I go and whatever I do I may shine for you.
I've been called up to do another two more musicals. It's a quirky thing that I've been called up. Honestly I don't have a very good impression of the director/scriptwriter. Haha. Getting picky are we? After the previous one I did I look back in disbelief. Things fell into place really miraculously and it's really a clear indication I had God's blessing. This time I'm more afraid it'd become a little god of its own. God showed me what gifts He's bestowed on me through this experience but I'd really like to know how then I can use it to bless His name. Guess it's not wrong to take up the offer but i'd like to know if it's God's will.. Search me O God, my secret heart lies plain before you.
Mantou at 5:13 PM