Saturday, October 25, 2008
The silence is broken
Hi hi.. How are you my dear readers? You know what I've never felt obliged to write something on my blog just so my readers can be updated.. But there's always this healthy tension between just blogging and blogging so others can be updated. This is called communication. It's a healthy, responsible way of being an online community member. Right?
So where have I been? I guess sometimes even I ask myself this question. Where have I been? Hmm.
Well, so much for being a responsible online community member. I'm off facebook and off friendster. I deleted it! Why, some may ask. I was even so tempted to remove my blog. It's just that I couldn't bear to leave behind two years worth of memories and let it disintegrate into wandering megabytes caching somewhere in cyberspace. You know that's why it's better to keep a proper diary that at best will have yellowed pages and faded ink over the years? If one day blogspot should fail like the Lehman Brothers all our precious memories could go kapoof just like that. But I digress.
Why the sudden urge to pull away from online communities? I think it's not really explainable by sheer logic; I just found that I was not being fair to myself or others by using these communities to 'promote' myself and show how interesting my life is to have been here or done that, or know this person or that person. It's overtaking my true personality and soon my real time interactions with others would take the same slant of thought. Figured there's more to life than just waiting for comments on your posts and pics. Don't get me wrong. I'm not against others using it. I'm just realizing that it's not working out for me. You could say I'm extreme. But I had rationally thought it out and figured it wouldn't really be much of a loss. For the friends that really matter to me I have their contacts in my phone, always possible to fix a day where we can truly meet and talk real time.
So what have I been busy with? What everybody else would be busy with I guess. Studying, working, family, church. I am nearing the end of my contract as well as my studies. This means it's time for me to possibly leave the life I've known so well. Or do I? This is the time for me to be at the crossroads of decisions once again. So much has changed in the Mentor's ministry, but it's been most interesting. And as far as bosses are concerned, I think my immediate boss is crazy. But we all seem to love him one way or another. I hope he doesn't read this.
May You increase and I decrease.
May You increase as I decrease.
May You increase I will decrease.
Amen.
Mantou at 11:02 PM