Friday, May 19, 2006
Verbal Diarrhoea
Did I spell it correctly? What the heck.
20.14 pm. I sit in front of the computer. Wavering in resolve.
Just finish typing an anguished entry about my dad. How do I feel?
Ok, I guess. I wanna work through these feelings, because this is what causes me to falter everytime I see him, or am reminded to pray for him.
20.18 pm. Time flies. Wavering once more in resolve.
I've come to realize how hard it is to bring to God issues really close to my heart. And to really pray about it. I find myself speechless about such issues before a Maker who knew me before I was formed in my mother's womb. But I realize that doesn't stop me from discovering the wonderful nature of God. Wait - I take that back; it does. It puts a limit on what can be transformed by Him about me. Whatever is not transform to reveal His glory stays unglorified, so it does stop me from discovering His wonderful nature. But His Words are priceless treasures and it makes me 'wise for salvation' provided I have faith and love in Jesus Christ.
20.24 pm. It's getting interesting. Wavering in resolve.
Do you conclude your case is singular, and therefore fear? It
shall be well, for no temptation hath taken you, but such as is
common to man; and God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be
tempted above that ye are able; but will also with the temptation
make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. It shall be well.
Psalm 32
Of David. A maskil. [a]
1 Blessed is he
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the man
whose sin the LORD does not count against him
and in whose spirit is no deceit.
3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.
Selah
5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, "I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD "—
and you forgave
the guilt of my sin.
Selah
6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you
while you may be found;
surely when the mighty waters rise,
they will not reach him.
7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Selah
8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.
9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.
10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.
11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!
Mantou at 8:09 PM