Monday, July 24, 2006
OMG! A blog update!
Haha.. Discovered I have some readers to my blog! *shrugs* So I shall be a leetil more responsible and update it as and when I can, which is rare. :p Disclaimer: Readers are advised to read at their own discretion as contents were never meant for public viewing in the first place. *cracks knuckles* Ok, here we go...
Some Random Thoughts..
I must be getting sappy.. Should I even use such a word? Well, it's weird but things that didn't matter to me as much are slowly but surely becoming higher on my priority list. Over the years what seemed like an ideal to pursue became a value to uphold. What seemed to be unbelievable to me is slowly becoming something I can relate to.. Guess that's what becoming a Christian can do for you? Cynicism has no place in the kingdom of our Heavenly Father. Realized I judge people quite a fair bit after a while. Like in a passive way. Because of my inability to express myself on my opinion about people's behavior, the negative aspects stay in my heart and develops into a subtle grudge called judgment. That leads to me raising a barrier so friends can rarely gain access into me. Those who try definitely need to pry it out of me. Why? Because even though I judge ppl, guess I'm blessed with a heart for the 'underdogs'. *Sigh* What a complicated life. Then even though I have a heart for the 'underdogs' (i use quotation marks cos really, I'm the underdog that misses out the most in life), I never believe they will be able to understand me or be interested to know who I really am. And that's the deepest issue in me. One of the universal problems of men and I'm the epitome of it. CLAM.
Today I invited Jesus to come and fill my dark places with his marvellous Light. Wonder what took me so long. But this is one of best promises of Jesus. Acknowledge him as an aspect you discovered him to be and it unlocks that power to transform your life.
Discovered a few more things about my dear bro today. It's just nice to noe that you will always discover more and more about a person as you interact with that person. There never seems to be a time things get stagnant if it's a mutual friendship/relationship.
Had a really meaningful time at the full dress rehearsal today. It was truly a challenge to have to focus on each role and get immersed in each role so quickly, not to mention change costumes! *wipes sweat* Thank God for his guidance and opportunity to learn the dynamics in this ministry. Wonder if this leads to an open door in drama ministry?
Mom's closed the door on me. It's sad that things suddenly took a turn just like that, out of the blue. I guess I'll never know why, or maybe I did, like it was just a time bomb waiting to explode. Well I was reminded about what Jesus said about Him coming that parents will turn against their children, etc. I'm prepared for that outcome if it ever boils down to it. It's also said that a prophet is not without honor except in his own hometown. I think I understand how that feels. Not that I'm a prophet, but I guess I'm really serious about my faith but it doesn't impress my mom, nor does it impact my mom. Ha, she even called it evil. Sheesh, so much for being a good testimony. She attributes it to her credit, saying that she gave birth to me with such a character in built already. Whatever.
Some random thoughts huh. Ciao
Mantou at 2:58 AM