Monday, August 07, 2006
Liberation
"Today I am going to begin" - Jean Pierre de Caussard
There is a certain liberation in opening cans of worms. *smiles*
Today I am going to begin:
'What I want to do doesn't matter, others can do what they wanna do first' - Resignation that stems from multiple disappointments. In retrospect it can also be termed as Selflessness. God sees the heart.
'I love being in worship and fellowship with God' - Escapism that stems from having faced rejection and criticism from people close to you, to the point you find no stability in human relationships. In retrospect it can also be termed as having tasted Grace. God sees the heart.
'So-and-so has got issues and struggles he/she's facing' -Sensitivity that stems from having countless internal battles trying to understand what you're going through. In retrospect it can also be termed as Empathy. God sees the heart.
'Remember you told me that there's something in my life that I'm missing? I think I know what it is. But I'm not exactly sure what it is yet. Still working it out.' - Scene from Ruri No Shima
All I want to do is to not be afraid of being myself, flaws and all. Mistakes cannot be avoided. Emotions should not be suppressed to often. Disillusionment will take its place. Scared to fall? Do I not realise there is someone waiting to catch me if I should fall? Pressured to perform? It takes away much joy and comfort in my relationships. Don't I realise that I am accepted as I am already?
The Way I was Made - Chris Tomlin
Caught in the half-life, I’m caught alone Waking up to the sunrise and the radio Feels like I’m tied-up of what’s holding me Just praying today will be the day I go free I want to live like there’s no tomorrow I want to dance like no one’s around I want to sing like nobody’s listening Before I lay my body down I want to give like I have plenty I want to love like I’m not afraid I want to be the man I was meant to be I want to be the way I was made Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands Made to discover who You are and who I am And All I’ve forgotten help me to find All that You’ve promised let it be in my lifeMantou at 2:45 AM