Wednesday, September 06, 2006
The trouble about being a counselor by nature
I sometimes wonder what it means to be human. You know, emotions, tantrums, that side of it. Cos it seems almost alien to me. I realize somehow I have an innate mechanism that consoles me whenever something bad happens. Just like a defence mechanism. Here's an example: I lost my bicycle today. It happened in the stupidest way ever. Just proves that I can't multitask for nuts. My cellphone rang just as I was on my bike about to dismount at my destination. So I (thinking I must have looked real cool) took out my phone, answered it, and dismounted all at the same time. I subsequently parked my bike at the bike park (still on the phone) and went to the bus stop. It was only halfway through the worship conference set up that I realized I had forgotten to lock my bike. Bummer! Immediately I consoled myself saying that this is not the first time I had left it unlocked; it'll be fine. When I went to retrieve my bike, it was indeed missing. The thing that I'm most perturbed about is the fact that it took me no more than five minutes to get over it!! I told myself it was a cheap bike, it's fine, and that was it!
No distress no dismay no disappointment! What in the world is wrong with me??!! It takes me too quick to get over something. Can I not abandon rational for a while and just embrace the reality of that situation and its implications? DO I EVEN HAVE TO ANALYZE THAT?
Mantou at 11:42 PM