"Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.
Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain." Phillipians 2:12-16

If you find yourself not knowing how to cry even though your insides are about to spill out, just take a walk in the rain. Just don't enter air con places after that. The chill in you will be manifested physically soon after...
It sure ain't an easy process, having God work in you to become blameless and harmless. But God's boundaries were always meant to protect those He loves. I remember the last time He came and rescued me from what was potentially harmful for me and others whom I loved. It only hurt because I was still holding on to the thing that was harmful and so He had to tear me away from it. Since then I have devoted my life to following Him, wherever He would lead me. This reminds me of a story I once heard.
Good Shepherds would know their sheep by name. They would even know which ones were likely to go astray. They'd watch and take note of the one that went astray most frequently. Once singled out, this is what they'd do. They'd leave the other sheep alone, go look for this sheep, go up to it and break its legs so it couldn't walk. Then they'd put them on their shoulders and carry it wherever they went until the sheep recovers. Then they'd put it down and discover that the sheep sticks the closest to them from them on.
" A broken and contrite heart you will not despise, O Lord."