Monday, June 18, 2007
Father's Day | Bon pere n'est pas
Yes, today was Father's Day.. Spent the most part of it with my Heavenly Father though, greeting Him with a worshipful heart right in the morning. The feeling was good. Then at service, round 2 with Graham! Just awesome, being ministered to by his leading. Here's another song that spoke to me today. Maybe it'll speak to you too. I'll share it anyhow. It's called 'The Way is Open'. Spent the afternoon at worship prac.
During the prayer meeting, He would do what He just does all the time. Faithfully but firmly bringing you to that place where you acknowledge your hurts before Him and release it to Him in forgiveness. It was in unspeakable pain when I did that but I know it paid off. It gave me the booster to initiate to meet my dad for a meal tomorrow. I think he appreciates it. Just a simple meal no doubt, but I do pray it paves the way for reconciliation and whatever God wants to do in this relationship. Just typical of my Heavenly Father to stir up these responses in me. *shakes head* I do appreciate it a lot. But it drains me out too. Haiz. For those of you who have prayed for me or given me well wishes about my family issues, thank you so much. Really appreciate it.
This short term pain long term gain thing seems to be the lesson He wants me to learn lately.. Obedience will pay off somehow when it hurts. He started with my finances and boy that's one of the toughest areas for me. But there are breakthroughs and I thank God for them. Never thought I'd go past giving tithes to God but it feels good now that I've gone beyond it. =) Painful to part with the money, but I thought about it and know that my money's better used by God than by myself. So it never hurts to give back to Him, technically.
Mantou at 12:58 AM